One Year ago Today

It is hard to believe that One year ago today we said Hello and goodbye to our son, Addison Carter White. I am not writing this post to try and re-focus on my pain. Nor, am I writing this post to try to make a big deal out of the suffering that I have experienced over the past 12 months. I am writing this as a testimony to God's grace to bring me through this loss, and also a memorial to our baby - because I will never forget him.

I would be lying if I said that I am here , a year later totally over the loss of Carter. I truely don't think I will ever be "over" it. I am however, completely amazed and thankful for God's grace to me and giving me peace in times when , in my own flesh I would have none. Not only knowing but BELIEVING in God's sovereigity is a great comfort. I do not know how I would every get through a loss like this, or any other, without understanding the sovereigity of God. I know that my "human mind" could go so many places of how, why, this is unfair, etc But thankfully one of the many ways God has been gracious to comfort me through this is with his loving soverigity over ALL things, and by his grace he allows me to trust him fully, because he is good and does all things well.

I am so thankful to God for being so gracious to surround me with many loving friends and family members who have been so thoughtful to ask me how I am doing and so kind to listen me when I needed to talk. I appreciate every phone call, text message, letter, card, hug, smile , etc.

But he said to me " My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness". Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weakness, so that the power of Christ will rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12.9

Happy Birthday Carter! We love you!

Christmas in Heaven

My First Christmas in Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
With tiny lights, like Heaven’s stars, reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear,
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music can’t compare
with the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond descriptions to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me. I see the pain inside your heart,
But I am not so far away, we really aren’t apart.
So be happy for me dear ones. You know I hold you near,
And be glad I’m spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I send you each a special gift from my heavenly home above.
I send you each a memory of my undying love.
After all “love” is the gift, more precious than pure gold.
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do,
For I can’t count the blessings or love He has for you.
So have a joyous Christmas and wipe away the tear,
Remember, I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

Aurhor Unknown----


We LOVE you Carter!
Have a Merry Christmas in Heaven!

Love,
Mommy, Daddy and Bailey