6 months ago yesterday our son, Addison Carter White, grew wings and flew to Heaven to be with Jesus. It seems like just yesterday we were so excited about his arrival to this world. My pregnancy flew by so fast. I will never forget the day we found out we were expecting, May 19, 2007. I loved being pregnant. It was so incredible to feel Carter moving and kicking all of the time. He especically loved snicker bars!!! :) However, everytime I went to the doctor and got on the scales , and the nurse kept saying I was gaining MORE and MORE weight... I wasn't loving that;) But I have no regrets. December 28, 2007 will forever be etched in my mind. The day we found out our baby was not going to be arriving to this world. The day we found out that Jesus had decided he was going to raise our Son for us. My heart still aches for him. There is not one day that goes by that I do not wish that he was here with us. It was not until 2 days ago was I able to finish up his nursery and finally open his door. It feels so good to have his door open now. For the past 3 nights I have turned on his lamp in his room, just as I do Bailey's lamp in the evening before bed. I know that our Son is in Heaven and will forever be our Angel. It is comforting to know that one day we will spend eternity with him in Heaven. Through this experience I have been able to meet several ladies who have been through similar infant losses in the past months. It has truely been a blessing to be able to meet and communicate with people that are feeling the same way I am. I am also so lucky to have some of the best friends to be able to walk with us through this STILL most difficult time. We would not be where we are now, without all of our precious friends. I am not even going to attempt to name them ( because I feel certian I would probably leave someone out unintentionally) but you all know who you are!! I want you all to know how thankful and blessed we are to have you all in our life. We love each and everyone of you very much and you will always have a special place in our hearts. We truely could not have made it through this without you all. I am attaching some pictures of Carter's finished nursery. We love you Carter. Even though you will never physically be in your room, your prescence will always be felt in there.I love you MORE and MORE each and every day!
