6 months ago yesterday our son, Addison Carter White, grew wings and flew to Heaven to be with Jesus. It seems like just yesterday we were so excited about his arrival to this world. My pregnancy flew by so fast. I will never forget the day we found out we were expecting, May 19, 2007. I loved being pregnant. It was so incredible to feel Carter moving and kicking all of the time. He especically loved snicker bars!!! :) However, everytime I went to the doctor and got on the scales , and the nurse kept saying I was gaining MORE and MORE weight... I wasn't loving that;) But I have no regrets. December 28, 2007 will forever be etched in my mind. The day we found out our baby was not going to be arriving to this world. The day we found out that Jesus had decided he was going to raise our Son for us. My heart still aches for him. There is not one day that goes by that I do not wish that he was here with us. It was not until 2 days ago was I able to finish up his nursery and finally open his door. It feels so good to have his door open now. For the past 3 nights I have turned on his lamp in his room, just as I do Bailey's lamp in the evening before bed. I know that our Son is in Heaven and will forever be our Angel. It is comforting to know that one day we will spend eternity with him in Heaven. Through this experience I have been able to meet several ladies who have been through similar infant losses in the past months. It has truely been a blessing to be able to meet and communicate with people that are feeling the same way I am. I am also so lucky to have some of the best friends to be able to walk with us through this STILL most difficult time. We would not be where we are now, without all of our precious friends. I am not even going to attempt to name them ( because I feel certian I would probably leave someone out unintentionally) but you all know who you are!! I want you all to know how thankful and blessed we are to have you all in our life. We love each and everyone of you very much and you will always have a special place in our hearts. We truely could not have made it through this without you all. I am attaching some pictures of Carter's finished nursery. We love you Carter. Even though you will never physically be in your room, your prescence will always be felt in there.I love you MORE and MORE each and every day!
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I know it is still really tough for you. I just want you to know you are in my prayers. :) Love you!
~Kathy
You did a beautiful job with his nursery. I'm praying for you. Love you!
Carter's room looks awesome! I love the color green you selected. I'm sure God gave him a nursery up in heaven just like the one you designed for him!
BEAUTIFUL nursery - just like little Carter himself! :)
So gorgeous Ashleigh! My prayers are continuously with you and your family! Love you.. Madelyn
What a beautiful room. One month exactly after you lost your son, I lost both of my sons. My heart aches for them every minute of everyday which I am sure you can relate too. Thank you for sharing your Carter with me, he is so beautiful.
The nursery is beautiful! I loved seeing the pictures. We are praying for you daily and love you guys!
-Jamie :)
LOVE the nursery and we still think of you often and you are always in our prayers!
Hi Ashleigh, I'm just finding your blog tonight...the night before I go back to the dr. to discuss my diagnosis of MTHFR. I found your blog from Devon's blog (Homesick). I am so sorry for your loss, you and your family will be in my prayers! I have had 2 miscarriages, the last one in October. My dr. decided to do further testing, and found the MTHFR. I noticed on Devon's blog you have this too. I was curious if you have talked to your dr. about this further? What has he suggested??
Mine suggested lovenox injections during the entire pregnancy plus 6 weeks after, and I'm on a high dose of folic acid now and a baby aspirin. We have an almost 3 yr old little boy, but have been trying for the second for about a year and a half. I'll be honest, I'm scared to death to even try for another one now that I've found out about the MTHFR. My dr. says as long as I'm on the meds, everything should be fine, but I would love to talk to someone else with this disorder to see what their dr.s have said. Obviously we know the horrible outcome it can lead to, and no one should have to go through that.
Again, I'm so sorry for your loss, I hope you will find some comfort in knowing you have an extra person praying for you tonight!
Still thinking of you always and praying for constant healing.
Stace
You are still in my thoughts and prayers. His room is beautiful and I know he loves it from Heaven!!
I know how hard these past months have been for you. I think of you and pray for you to have strength to face each day. You know I'm here for you!
Beautiful nursery! Thinking of you and hope you are doing well.
Jeremiah 29:11
Love and prayers!
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